Experience – Depression

Immediate Help Service helped me when I was contemplating suicide

FDAMH were there for me straight away. Having just left my doctor suffering from a bad depression I called there number that was given to me by the doctor, I spoke with a person that agreed to meet me straight away.

I went to their offices and met with Jane. Jane took me to a room and we talked about my problems, problems that to me were so bad I no longer wanted to be a burden and was contemplating suicide.

Jane managed to talk me out from these thoughts and gave me some hope of help. Jane also gave me some helpful information and contacts that could possibly help me, and for that immediate help I am grateful. I do believe that if I had not been given this help from FDAMH I would have followed through on my thoughts of suicide.

Thank you.

Tags: Depression, Immediate Help Service
15/09/2016 at 2:34 pm


Depression

I have to say yes to you because you are there
I can’t leave you because you are the cross I have to bear
A death brought you onto my pathway one day
And then mental illness found its way.

Six times without conviction you’ve rattled my cage
I was just an innocent walking you about had me deranged
Those six times I tried to escape
And those six times ended up in rape.

At certain times I’ve tried to come to you
In those god awful moments slit wrists, some kind of over view
One million tablets swallowed, with the hanging ladder intent to die
You’re never ending visits so haunt to make me cry.

You are a never ending circle which consequents doom
An endless merry go round dark with a tomb
Unexpectedly you’ll come round just to say
I’m the bogey man Stephanie. Won’t you come out to play.

Time upon time you prey at my door
You’re the devil incarnate for ever more
Mentally exhausted I’m left licking the wounds
With a heart so darkened I renaign your sounds.

Evil oh evil us mere innocents you rake
You are no 666 but 999 in our emergency how you’d love us to break
But for love of god which passes all understanding
Righteousness mercy just so stops your demanding.

There must come time that will hault your fate
Where depression you will hand with devil your mate
Where hopefully I will be the one left riding
With the god my father in our peaceful perfect chariot
Over a shangrile sky.

This moving poem was written by a member of our Creative Writing Group and was read out live on Radio Royal in 2015.

Tags: Activity Groups, Depression
21/12/2015 at 11:53 am


Pushing past anxiety to reap the benefits of befriending

Having had anxiety for a long time, meeting people and going places has always been a struggle. So when having a befriender was mentioned, the same anxious feelings of fear and worry which usually made me put off doing things were there as always.

I’m glad to say I did push through my anxiety and met my befriender who was so easy going that it made me question what all my worrying was for. I realised had I not met him it would have been a big mistake as I would have missed out on many positive experiences, like having something to look forward to each week or learning to play squash which I would never have done or just being able to talk about anxiety and depression with someone who understands just in the same kind of way we chat about everyday things like movies or what happened during our week.

Thinking about my anxiety and negative thinking I had before meeting my befriender and then seeing through time how it changed to the point of looking forward to the meetings. It gives me hope that if my thoughts and anxiety can change with that, hopefully they can be changed with other aspects of my life.

Received: February 2014

Tags: Anxiety, Befriending, Depression
26/05/2014 at 7:36 pm


Befriending can tackle isolation by helping to build life skills

I suffer from Schizophrenia and Depression. So it was suggested that I should join the Befriending Scheme, to overcome my problems of isolation, low self-esteem, poor social skills, lack of confidence and motivation.

At work I would concentrate on the job, working by myself, taking no breaks and not talking to anyone. Then when at home, living by myself, I would go to bed, turning night into day which meant that I had poor attendance at work. The entire weekend was spent in bed, watching TV, listening to my CD’s or spending time on my computer, with no interest in going out.

This has changed as a result of befriending – going out once a week to meet someone who cares about my wellbeing, in social settings has encouraged me to go out more. The advice given to me on how to think positively has built up my confidence, so that I now go on work’s outings and parties.

I no longer stay in bed. I am in my work on time and get up at 9 am at weekends, to visit (my sibling) in another town. My job performance, once rated poor, is now classed as excellent, because I now joke with workmates and help them out if they have a difficult task.

All of this is an outcome of befriending – tips on how to share common interests, how to keep a conversation going and setting myself goals – by taking things one step at a time. This has been the type of advice given by my befriender.

Tags: Befriending, Depression, Isolation and Loneliness, Schizophrenia
27/11/2013 at 6:33 pm


My counselling was a ‘life saver’

Just wanted to say that I was so lucky to get counselling at FDAMH when I needed it most. I was severely depressed and couldn’t see a way out. My counsellor worked with me one on one and that was really important because I was able to begin to trust someone for the first time in my life at the age of 41. Although I no longer use the service today (I’ve continued to improve my mental health through further services) I strongly feel that FDAMH was a life saver for me, it played the very important part of being the “Mental Wellness First Aid” that I so badly needed. Thank you.

Tags: Counselling, Depression
26/11/2013 at 9:14 pm